Phobia - What others think of me?

Most of the time we don't do so many things which we really want to do, just because we think that, what others think of me? Well, I am coming out of this phobia by writing this blog post, if I am still thinking that what others think of me, I would not be writing this blog and you aren't reading this. Yes, I asked this question to myself,  before writing this blog, what others think of me if I write this blog? People may think I am not a good blog writer, they may think my English is not so good, and they may think, I don't know anything and I am simply writing this blog.  Let them say, but every time when they try to discourage me in my work, each time I will get a chance to correct the mistakes  and practice them, then I will become a expert. Who knows? maybe the same people appreciate my work later.

Sometimes we don't even speak and don't share our ideas with others, because of this Phobia, "what people think of me?" And later we regret on that, because someone said the same thing which I thought and some one shared the same idea which is greatly appreciated, instead of regretting, I learn from the mistake, and I will make sure the same situation never repeats again.

I remember a saying, "Stones will be throne at the tree,in which it has Fruits."

So, by this saying what I understood is, its up to you that, will you collect those stones and build your house or you will collect the stones and create your own grave. 

I have experienced some situations where, Some students have consistently scored top in their colleges but sometimes they fail to crack the interview, because one of the reason is phobia "What others think of me"? You might know the correct answer but still you are not telling it. You are thinking whether the answer is correct or not. It may be correct or wrong just tell the answer, everything happens for good. If the answer is wrong, you will learn what the answer is, If it is correct, your chances of getting the job will be increased, also your  confidence, so in both ways its good.

Coming out of this Phobia is a very big challenge for me, but I am coming out of this phobia slowly. When I will be completely out of this phobia then I think I will be completely happy. 

When I think that, what others think of me, I realized I am not living my life for myself, I am living for others. To be happy in my life, its important to be myself and do things for myself not for others.

I am decided that I will follow some mantras to come out of this Phobia "what others think of me?"

• What other people think of me is none of my business.
• Love yourself and accept yourself.
• Be confident in yourself.
• Don't compare yourself with others, be you!
• Think positively.

Learning: Day 1 at TestInsane and I started Blogging

My name is Sandeep Kumar Hiremath, I am a Freakish Software Tester, Context Driven Testing Student who loves traveling and Gaming. I am currently an intern at TestInsane.
 

I am a BCA degree holder, and I worked in a BPO as a Technical Support guy at Adobe for a year.
Then got into Testing  (through my girlfriend’s reference). I didn’t like the job because as it was for the most part a Data Entry job rather than Software Testing, well I got some experience there which is not bad. Everything happens for Good! Then I resigned and joined a Start-up company off course with a decent pay, even there I felt the same and one fine day I walked out of the company and right now I am feeling I am at the right place Test Insane. I was looking for a place where I can express myself, learn, work, have creative freedom, fun, discussions over a beer, meet ups with other freaky bug mongers, workshops and lots of

Today is a very special day for me. I joined the crew of "Test Insane", today April 6th Santhosh Tuppad's birthday Founder and managing Director of "TestInsane" (Captain of the Ship) and I am writing my First Blog post today! Isn’t that amazing? :)

I am very glad that I got into Test Insane as Intern, even though I have 1.5 years of Experience in Testing, but I was into Process Driven Testing, now I am into Context Driven Testing! I am really happy to do what I love to do!

On my first day at Test Insane the First Question I was asked was "What is Testing??"
My answer was "Testing is a process to make a software bug free (in simple words "Finding bugs")
but, today I learned a new Definition of James Bach:- Testing is "Questioning a product in order to Evaluate it".

For most part of the day I was involved in training which was unique, I never attended a Class / Training like this before, without a marker, board, book, and without any single slide show, Santhosh Tuppad was Trainer, who also happens to be my Mentor & Teacher,  but he didn’t  teach me much but he made me Think on Everything! And I felt this is the right way to learn, I wondered what if our Schools also teach/train like this, Learning with fun is most effective one.

In Training, we not only discuss/learn about the Testing, like the typical coaching classes do, but we also discuss about so many things like Electronics, Keyboard shortcuts, well it may sound silly but there were some things which I didn’t know on my computers keyboard being a techie guy, how many of you know what ~ symbol is called and its spelling? And how many of you know how many spaces will be there in a “tab”(Tab key)? These things may sound silly but they have their own value. Do Research/Explore! That’s what I do in Test Insane.

I learned one more interesting thing today i.e, Yin-Yang a Chinese symbol of Good and Bad.

In this symbol Black color indicates Bad / Darkness and White indicates Good / Light / Peace which means, in every Good thing there is a Bad thing. And in every Bad thing there is a Good thing, so look for  the Good thing in every Bad thing, if you do good, good will happens to you, isn’t that true ?

So, this is what I felt writing in my Very first Blog post on a very special day!

Open for Comments and Suggestions.

And here are some important things which I would like to share with you about testing which may help you.

Websites to explore about Exploratory and testing techniques: www.satisfice.com, http://.apps.testinsane.com,  http://apps.testinsane.com/mindmaps
Book to read about Software Testing: Lessons Learned in Software Testing.

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